my-ruin's Diaryland Diary

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the queen has returned to her throne

ya know. fuck it. fuck you.

this is MINE. and i'm taking it back.

Is it possible to be in love with two people at the same time? Or is it like when yr falling in love with the 2nd one, yr falling out of love with the first?? And how do you know any of it is actual love in the first place? You just know. Right?

Well the 2nd person makes me feel squishey all over every time i talk to him. We have so much in common and we're on the same page when it comes to alot of stuff.

the first one. well, keith. we've been going out on and off for 3 years. I know i love him. I just havent quite figured out how. I don't think about him as much as i used to.

he doesn't call me when he says he will.

i dunno. i just feel like im slipping away into this dream. once i'm there i dont ever want to wake up. but the 2nd one. its like he is too good to be true. and its a really weird fate kind of story.

one day everything will fall into its definate place. right now there is too much dust in the air.

Let me just warn who ever may be reading this... If you know someone i know, and decide to tell them what i write in here, i don't even know what i'll do, but in all likely hood you probably wont have a face anymore.
2ND - i'm not gonna update this all the time. i have another page. the cool people know that, and the rest of you don't. Not saying that yr not particularly cool, but i guess i'm just picky when it comes to who can pry into my personal life.
3rd. i have fotki. the address is public.fotki.com/scarling you can leave comments telling me how ugly you think i am.

2:49 pm - 06.05.02

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