my-ruin's Diaryland Diary

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a nightmare...horrid + dark

i have a strong urge to call Hunter. I hate this. I either love him or hate him. Granted, its mostly love, but still. The reason i feel weird around him is kinda weird to talk to him about. it would probably sound something like this:
"hey, have you noticed how eveytime you want me to get naked for you or fuck around in yr car we kinda drift apart?"
i need to talk to him about it. i'm pretty sure he'll understand. So not only have i been wanting to call him lately, but today i went up to *mary*. Thats his meditation spot, which turned into our meditation spot.

see, all this shit weaving its way around my brain?? this is why people suck. they have the ability to make you extatic or want to commit suicide. I'm not saying Hunter does either, i'm just talking in general.