my-ruin's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2nd entry..not even an hour later... hmmm. You know you have strange friends when you look check yr email and you see a pic of their ear. i dunno i feel weird again. Last night i had a dream that my grandfather died and he was burried under the steps in the back yard at my grandmothers house. i had a bunch of other weird dreams last night. but i wont waste my time trying to type them out when i can't even really describe them out loud. i saw this kid at the show tonight. His name is Jason Crocket. I havent seen him since i was 16 or 17. he's shorter than i remember him being. hes such a fucking scum bag this kid... ikk. every other word out of his mouth is a lie. once in my life i'd like to punch someone in the nose and break it so their face would get all bloody. - i apologize for my violent streak, but hey its there. lately i've been thinking about when i was all suicidal and stuff. i can't help but realize how fucking stupid i was for thinking no one cared. As much as anyone could ever think that they're wrong. I also kinda feel dumb about the whole self esteem thing. I'm not Miss America - not even close. But i'm beautiful in my own little way. In fact i'm even beautiful in more ways than one. I'm not saying this because i'm full of my self...cos that is soooo far from the truth. Everyone is beautiful. Everyone has flaws . This adds to the whole character thing,and accepting these flaws helps you realize what a cool person you really are. I should really retract the statement "everyone is beautiful" , cos ya got people like hitler or bin laden or whoever who are just bleh. People like that deserved to be tortured. Peel off their skin and feed them their own brain *among other things*. hang them by their toung. or by their feet so all the blood rushes to their head, then take a metal baseball bat or a crowbar and hit 'em like a pinata. ha. ok i'm getting sick. 12:53 am - 04.22.02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
||||||
|
||||||