my-ruin's Diaryland Diary

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well i guess this is growing up.

Unarmed bandit + the kung foo chick. Partners in crime 4 life.

I called Hunter. finally We just got off the phone. We're gonna chill friday after work. We'll probably either play monopoly or wind up in atlantic city and get tattoos or something. I feel so much better. It got to the point where i just couldn't get him off my mind. That doesn't happen with people often. Infact the only person it happens with is him. Arrgh. I wish i could express how i feel without sounding like a cheating skank or an idiot. But Hunter is... i dunno. I get a feeling anytime i'm talkin to him or chillin with him. like we should be doing something important together. sharing a moment |or a series of moments| together. He asked me if i "still had a man". I told him yes. So he wants me to make sure keith knows how lucky he is. awww. so we were just bullshittin and we started to play fight. he told me he was gonna smack the pretty off of my face. haha.

anywho. Duke came by today. With Joanna. and my sister. it was nice to see him. i miss him. i miss the old him. I think of him and i start to think of the way things were. sometimes i miss it. sometimes i'm glad its all behind me. maybe i'm growing up. i'm not sure if i want that to happen just yet.

i feel strange. Usually i'll have this feeling that everything has happened before and that all will be well. Its gone. I don't have that. I think it may have something to do with Hunter. Aside from that i think my life has hit some sort of dry spell. I'm not sure if its a calm before a storm or not. Lots of little cool things have been happening. Nothing major. nothing important.

iwannabeindemand

love + bruises,
natalie

7:36 pm - 03.31.02

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